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they're cute

I have decided that I am going to attempt to read through the entirety of The Modern Library's 100 Best Novels list. Only the Board's List though since a lot of it is repeated on the reader's list, and the reader's list has far more L. Ron Hubbard on it than I'd probably like to read. And I plan on re-reading anything on the list that I have already read. So, here goes... starting with Ulysses...

http://www.randomhouse.com/modernlibrary/100bestnovels.html

wtf, friends?
can i please just get used to lagging on graduation before you start jumping to other life milestones???
thanks.

"The reasonable man adapts himself to the world; the unreasonable one persists in trying to adapt the world to himself. Therefore, all progress depends on the unreasonable man." -George Bernard Shaw

tomorrow i think i'll go to the library to borrow her autobiography.

though it's easier said than done.

my head and heart hurt.

I was in heaven
I was in hell
Believe in neither
But fear them as well
This one's a doctor
This one's a lawyer
This one's a cash fiend
taking your money
Back of the metro
Ride on the greyhound
Drunk on the Amtrak
Please shut up
ANOTHER RIDER
He was a talker
Talking about TV
Please shut up
This one's a crazer
Daydreaming disaster
The origin of junk food
Rutting through garbage
Tasty but worthless
Dogs eat their own shit
We're doing the cockroach yeah
Doin the cockroach yeah
Doin the cockroach yeah (alright, not bad)
One year
Twenty years
Forty years
Fifty years
Down the road in your life
You'll look in the mirror
And say, "My parents are still alive."
You move your mouth
You shake your tongue
You vibrate my eardrums
You're saying words
But you know I ain't listening
You're walking down the street
Your face
Your lips
Your hips
Your eyes
They meet
You're not hungry though
Well late last winter
Down below the equator
They had a summer that would make you blister
Oh my mind is all made up
So I'll have to sleep in it

beer and knitting in the afternoon.
what more could you want to relax?

last night i dreamt in spanish,
i was arguing with someone in perfect spanish,
so perfect, in fact, that they backed off when they realized they were no match for my articulateness.
the funny thing is i think the person may have been my grandma.
what i love about this is that i feel like this means i have it in me,
to speak spanish perfectly,
and perhaps it is a reminder that i should really practice as much as i can.

on another note,
what the fuck am i going to do with my life?
i'm so indecisive and lost,
and generally of the mindset that the opportunities available to me won't make me happy.
finally i conquer my standards when it comes to dating, sort of,
and of course that horrible tendency to measure reality against my ideals (and to outright reject anything less) is applied to my ENTIRE life instead.
uuuggghhhhhhh.

probably already an all time favorite film. i can't stop watching it over and over. and this is just the trailer.


and someday i would like to make the little prince into a film.

i read an entry in a community i follow that had a really great idea that i want to share with you guys. i'm absolutely stoned out of my mind right now though so i don't feel like doing it now, but i will certainly do it tomorrow... after i go to the library and spend the entire day in the children's section reliving probably some of the most perfect moments of my life.

www.goldinuniverse.com/

Name: Jade
Date: 3/20/2009
Colorgenics Number: 27460153

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You are trying to prove to others that nothing can really affect you. You are pretending to be stoical - indifferent to pain or pleasure and indeed even superior to any form of weakness. As a result, more often than not, you unfortunately act with undue harshness or severity by adopting an autocratic and self-willed attitude.

For some time now you have been feeling rather insecure. You are looking for - and needing - an environment that can offer you roots, stability and a position that will relieve you of excess tension and stress.

Your involvements seldom measure up to your high emotional expectations and your 'needs' to be 'loved' and 'cared for' have in the past often led to extreme disappointment. But a change is in the wind - make a firm decision to start anew. Just 'think' it..and it will happen.

You are experiencing extreme frustration at this point of time, trying to achieve security and peace of mind, but whatever you seem to do doesn't effect the situation. You are worn out and your energy is being seriously depleted. You may be experiencing what is known as 'heartache' - both mentally and physically. You are a listener and you listen and respond to everything that is going on around you. You feel that all that life has to offer should be within your grasp and you would like to participate in every part of it but the situation is such that every door seems to be closed to you. You just can't understand why that is. But it is - and what's more you feel powerless to change it.

Overwork - be it mental stress or physical strain, you are completely worn out and this depleted vitality has created an intolerance for any further stimulation. You feel disappointed with your obvious lack of energy and powerless to do anything about it. You are angry with yourself and this frustration shows. You are contradictory and argumentative and feel helpless to change the situation at this time. Take a break - even if it is only for a few days - allow yourself to breath, to unwind - you'll feel much better for it. Then trust and let go.

i feel another intense bob dylan phase coming on.

if i could be anywhere right now,
i would be laying on the floor of eric's dorm room--
what--like two years ago?
on the tail end of an acid trip,
watching a bob dylan documentary,
followed by i heart huckabees,
with leslie and eric.

i'm really afraid something is going to take this feeling away from me.

i'm conditioned to believe that things can't just stay really good,
and that makes me horribly sad.

lalala

i'm in love

i will never ever ever ever grow sick of animal collective.

i like to pretend this song was written for me...



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